Changes

You're struggling as had as she is to “not” see it.
It’s not easy watching a parent fade.
Especially when they’re vibrant and engaged in life.
How much to do tell or warn family? Or do you wait for them to make their own judgement?
But you know they are not spending the time and seeing. What they think was a momentary lapse, the excitement of the moment or too many distractions going on you know that’s not all it is.
You know. You know by daily observation, daily conversations it’s not a lapse. It’s on going and happening more often and lasting longer.
You watch the life she built slipping away.
She’s alone, she’s driven everyone else away and you see yourself doing the same thing. You learned at her knee. It’s not safe to let people in. You feel you have to take it all on yourself, no help. It’s like a knife to the heart.